My health has really gone down hill over the past three years. I have been increasing my activity level to start loosing this weight and improve my health, but it is so frustrating how the weight is just sitting there. I remembered a nifty program on line where you could make a Virtual You, so I made three MEs. I will start at three years ago.

This was me from 2000 until the summer of 2005, even after having another child. I was a size 12 and pretty much happy with my size.

This was me soon after I quit smoking. I went up to a size 14 and stayed steady there for a little over a year.

This is where I have been for about a year. I am now at a size 18 and everything hurts. It is amazing how I let my self go. Part of had to do with the humidity causing my FMS to flair up. Another part had to do with severe depression while at my previous job.

Since moving up here, I have increased my activity leave by 10 folds, it is just alot harder to loose the weight that it is to put on. I do not recognize myself in the mirror anymore and I hate that. On the up side, we have been taking awesome hikes during the weekend and I have been working in the yard during the day. The fat in my ars is hurting, so that has to be good. On the flip side, since I quit smoking, I now crave food that is really not so good for me when I am stressed. Why can’t there be a way to get the calming effects of a smoke minus the whole smell and upping my already high risk of cancer? If you have any ideas, let me know. Oh, and before you mention knitting or spinning, I am addicted to it as a crack whore is to crack, again, minus the weight-loss. LOL The upside to that is I have awesome calves.

Okay, I am off to have a turkey burger on wheat bread, swap over the laundry, pick up the living room, and then rake more pine needles and leaves after the sun comes over to the east side of the house. The shade is a bit nippley even at 45 degrees.

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